"It's 2:30 now. I'm feeling a little better. I didn't go to the 1-2 shift . Instead I stayed back and talked to some of the other volunteers. It turns out that my first experience was prett normal. Most of them have black and blue marks all over them thanks to Jasper. So now that I've calmed down, I'm going to venture back into the nursery at 4:00.
"Well, I finished my second nursery shift. Afterall, I'm not a quitter. I am going to finish what I started and hopefully it will get better. Jasper was a little better but the whole experience is still pretty frightening. I tried to wear a scarf this time but that only lasted 5 seconds before they snatched it off. So I don't know what I'm going to do about my hair. And I can't even wash it because there's no hot water. Every rational cell in me is saying that this is too much. That I can't spend 3 - 4 hours a day being pissed on, thrown up on and bitten by these little monsters! I've never really been good with kids anyway. But that stupid voice in my head is telling me not to give up. I mean, i've gotten better at working with kids so maybe I'll get better at this too. Who knows...
"Well, I finished my second nursery shift. Afterall, I'm not a quitter. I am going to finish what I started and hopefully it will get better. Jasper was a little better but the whole experience is still pretty frightening. I tried to wear a scarf this time but that only lasted 5 seconds before they snatched it off. So I don't know what I'm going to do about my hair. And I can't even wash it because there's no hot water. Every rational cell in me is saying that this is too much. That I can't spend 3 - 4 hours a day being pissed on, thrown up on and bitten by these little monsters! I've never really been good with kids anyway. But that stupid voice in my head is telling me not to give up. I mean, i've gotten better at working with kids so maybe I'll get better at this too. Who knows...
"Okay, final thoughts of the day. It's been pretty emotional but all things considered, not a bad day. The people here are all great - otherwise, I might really be ready to go home. So I'm going to wait and see how tomorrow goes with the monsters. And I still have to figure out what to do about my hair other than wash it every day."
1 comment:
hey taj!!
i couldn't help but laugh at this. in your 2nd entry you are still civilized (eg. pee and poop) and here you are all disgusted (eg. pissed on by little monsters).
the first few days is all a little bit overwhelming, isn't it? :)
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